Who I am, & my vision
I want to share my vision with those new to fitness, or those who have been in the game for a while.
To say I was always into fitness would be a lie. (If you know me now, it is probably hard for you to believe that!) I actually started at the age of 18 working in a gym. Yep I was that front desk girl who checked you each visit, smiled nicely, and had small talk whenever possible. It was during that front desk job that I saw the trainers around me inspiring others, and having a great time impacting people's lives. At that moment I knew I wanted to be a part of that.
It was also at that moment that I saw how people would do almost anything to manipulate their body. Pills, shakes, various dieting approaches, all to have this body that was glorified on social media. Being skinny, lean, and always comparing themselves to someone else.
I also had fallen victim to that mindset, I saw girls who were 00, and to me that was what I was supposed to look like. I mean after all those girls had everything right? This mindset led to such disordered thoughts / relationships with food or fitness that nothing I achieved in the gym seemed good enough.
For years I struggled with this, and it stemmed deeper into anorexia. I had obtained 3 certifications by this time swearing I wanted to change people's lives while finishing my degree. However, I was the trainer who ran, ran some more, and didn't eat. I went from 125 to a mere 85 ibs. (I am 5'6 btw). It destroyed me, and it also hit me hard when I realized I was not setting a good example for those around me. How do you preach to someone health, yet there I was killing myself one day at a time.
I knew something needed to change, and I needed to take my life back. From 2013-2015 I dropped all running, started eating, and found a passion for lifting weights. I went from being unhealthy to taking control of my life again, and better yet having confidence in myself again. Flash forward to the end of 2015 I now had a new love, powerlifting.
It no longer mattered to me if I gained a pound or two, for me it was seeing how strong I truly was and how much I could push myself.
Since 2013, I have gone from 85 ibs to 127. I no longer fear foods, and most importantly I do not body shame myself. I competed in my first powerlifting meet in 2017, where I placed 2nd in my division, and my life has found so much balance ever since.
My mission as of now is to be the voice for those struggling. I am not nor will not ever promote pills. starvation, off limit foods, or over exercising.
I WILL NOT allow those working with me to continuously compare themselves to those around. I WILL strive to make you see the best version of yourself.
I WILL be your support when you feel like no one understands.
I am showing those struggling how they can overcome disorders, or have the strength to regain their life. How YOU can take your life back, and live it the way you are meant to live it.
I would never change my past, for without it I wouldn't be where I am today.